When will it end.....

For the past day and a half I have had to keep telling myself just let it go. Don't take it personally. Although that is an extremely hard thing for me to do (those that know me well I am sure are nodding their heads in agreement). It is all starting to get to me though and since all really want to do is vent and probably say things I shouldn't and be just as mean as everyone else, I will make a post about why it upsets me instead.

I love my blog and I love reading other blogs. I have been able to get back in touch with so many people who now live all over the place but at one point lived so close to me. It allows me to keep our families up to date with what we have been doing with out having to spend too much time on the phone since those of us with kids at home know how impossible it is to have a real conversation without being interrupted by screaming and fighting. I am also guilty of blog hopping/stalking. There are some seriously creative and crafty people out there that know a friend of a friend of a friend of mine. There is also tons of information on so many topics by so many people who have been there done that. Blogs have become a great resource for me which is why I have kept my blog public when so many I know have decided to go private.

I have also used my blog to vent. Vent about the things or kids that are driving me crazy. It is somewhat of a stress reliever for me and it also helps me feel better about myself when I see that others struggle with the same problems I do. Sometimes reading about someone else's bad day makes me realize that maybe mine is not so bad after all and I should stop complaining. I would hope that those reading my blog would realize that I am venting about personal experiences. Things that have happened to me and my family. Nothing I vent about attacks anyone I know in a personal way.

So yes, I was extremely hurt, mad and frustrated when yesterday I realized that one of my experiences was being used as a social commentary platform. I was then also used as a springboard for everyones frustration with people who do the same things I do. I was very hurt that people who didn't know me or my situation would pass such harsh judgement. By the time Jared got home last night I was on the verge of tears. I honestly thought that I would go to bed and everyone would move on from the day and that it would be somewhat forgotten. To my surprise that is not the case. Jared reminded me that blogging sometimes lets people feel anonymous and so they say things they wouldn't normally say about someone. Also that when you write something you cannot predict how the person reading it will interpret your tone. So with that reminder I am going to chalk this whole thing up to personal experience and move on.

One last thing I realized in the last 24 hours. It only takes one. One person to send the bandwagon rolling down the hill. One person to keep it rolling right towards someone with the intent of knocking them down. Although we should all beware that one day the bandwagon we were once on, might just be headed for us.

That is my two cents about my blog. Take it or leave it but please don't take it personally.